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Saturday, November 12, 2011

When Sadness Takes Up Residence

I have been away from my blog for some time now; I was derailed by swift and unexpected grief.

At the end of September my beloved dog Beanie succumbed to old age. Anyone who has allowed themselves to give their heart away completely to a pet understands the depth of my sadness.

And then tragically, in the wake of Beanie's departure, my dad, for whom I can not even begin to adequately express my love and devotion, slipped into a coma and subsequently left our midst. My sense of loss is profound and the pain is deep.

Recently a very old friend penned these words to me~

Just when I thought I was doing better, some reminder came along and knocked me flat on my back. It was painful. And I never get over missing my parents...it doesn't go away. I just get used to it.

Grief is tricky business. Just when I think I am beginning to brighten, a little thing will trigger tears.

I'm sure that tears will eventually ebb and I will be warmed by the countless good memories of my relationship with my dad. There is such rich history with him and I will never tire of recounting all the ways he impacted me and all of the reasons I valued him.

But for now I am somewhat shackled by emotion.

My dad loved to know that I was writing and he encouraged me to pursue writing as a past time. Now and again I would write a short-short story and share it with him. Or I would deviate from the topics of house and garden to blog about something of a slightly more complex nature; mostly because I thought he wanted me to. He was my father, my friend and my biggest fan. And I can only hope he knows how much I miss him.


  1. Oh I am so sorry for both of your losses. Losing a pet is so sad and losing a parent seems like the pain will never end. God Bless and just remember all the good times. Hugs, Marty

  2. Marty, thank you for such a thoughtful and caring comment.

  3. Oh Dana, I've been worried about you and now I know why. I'm so sorry for both of your losses! I lost my mom 21 years ago. I understand your grief and pain. God has you in His loving arms and you are in my thoughts and prayers! Take care of your self!

  4. So sorry to hear about your losses. Grief is never easy. I will keep you in my prayers. Psalm 147:3 "He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds."

  5. Thank you for encouraging me from God's word. It was so sweet of you to take the time to comment!Your apple bread looks amazing and we just picked our trees so I have no excuse for not making this for my husband. Speaking of Mary Engelbreit, I miss her magazine. At least she blogs!

    Blessings on your week!

  6. Dana, I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I sure hope time will ease the heartache.

  7. Dana, I'm so sorry to hear of your trials and loss. Praying for you. May you find the peace of God during such a difficult time. He loves you and holds you in His hand.